"Can you hear me now...?"

(Background info...) I guess I've been very selfish in my prayers lately. Today at church, instead of a song, we had a silence tat lasted roughly the length of one song. I liked the idea, but it was a little bit weird at first. But once I closed my eyes and began to pray, it felt good. And even as I write this, I am reminded how important it is to really meditate on God.

So here's a confession:
I realized that with all the big questions in my life right now, I may not be getting answers because I'm asking too much and in a really selfish way. This is the way I worded my prayer in my mind: "God show me what my role is at school, church etc."
What a halfhearted way of asking... I guess what God pointed out to me, which was very humbling, was that asking God to show direction all the time is not a way of fully surrendering. Though it might be the way to pray in certain situations, for me, this is not what I should be praying.
I guess it should sound more like this:
"God, I'm listening."
Give God the question wholly and completely. Then listen. Don't ask all the time.
... Now I'm picturing a little kid always asking something, over and over, repeating him or herself.
If we always do that, how can we possibly hear an answer.
So.
God, I'm listening.